motivation

I have none. I know I want to get this weight off but i dont want to do shit about it, in fact, i want to go the other way. Eat shitty food, drink and do drugs. Andy said it was the weather and maybe it is. I sure hope so, I used to be able to motivate myself to get my ass in gear, but it's hard this time, i'm thinking about doing these crazy diets, fuck it, maybe hopefully one of them will work.